In November, I had a birthday. And for my birthday, Ed gave me a Holga, a sort of “toy” camera, plastic down to the lens, but shooting medium format film. But the unpredictability of the camera means that printing a whole role is impractical. But we’ve wangled a scanner off Ebay and now I can actually see (more than in the negs) what I’m getting. And so can you!

More to come as I sort through negatives and scan them in. But what I like even now is the lack of control I have over what a Holga does. It’s a toy, after all, not a precision instrument. There’s so much in my life I am not in control of, but feel like I should be. Here is something I am simply not in control of, and nor could I be, not really. So I surrender. It’s not easy, but when I do it, it feels good.

*Yes, there is also Daniel’s birthday which after several days of sugar is almost over (one more event to get through) but I’m not blogging about that. Well, maybe later.